Is Money Mine?

I am still determined to give myself the peace I truly desire from money. So I am going to pretend like money is my boyfriend this month. Yes, a boyfriend that I really love and care about and that I really want to be with. Yet there is one problem with the relationship. In my point of view, the boyfriend does not treat me so well, so I want to work on our relationship. Its an emergency though, so we have to go to hardcore counseling right away. (replace boyfriend with money)

So right now I am watching what it does. This is the first assignment. To watch what money does so I can see how it functions, how it works, who it is.

This is what I have come up with. money is constantly fluctuating, it comes then it leaves. I also notice it does not come to me at all one day, then another day it wants to be in my pocket

Bible Talk-yay! or nay?

I had to think about this before I wrote it because it almost seems like a death sentence, but I figured I might as well write about it because it has been my little insight for the day.

As I begin to realize that I hold the power to my peace and happiness, that I am the one that allows or disallows my well being, that it is ME who holds the power, many of things have begun to clear up for me. For instance, early in the morning I woke up and I thought to myself this quote that Jesus said:

"I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

Suddenly it made perfect sense. If someone was saying this in a present teaching they might have said this:

"I am that, which is freedom and peace and joy. No one can give me these three things except me."

*Before I end I just want to say, I don't claim any religion because I don't. Simple. I did grow up in the Christian church with a Christian family full of preaches and choir singers. So of course I see bibles all of the time, and I pick them up because they are around. But now I see the truth in them. If I was born into any other religion, I just might have picked up another religious text and finding truth in those too.

I need to be happy, Is it true?

I used to beat myself up about being happy. "I need to be happy-but I'm not." "I want to be happy-but I'm not." Sometimes, thinking that I needed to be happy hurt allot.

Even today I have a close family member who wants to be happy-but they aren't. If your reality right now is that you are not happy, that is okay. In fact, I am beginning to see that there is more than happy, there is something better than happy, but it is indescribable. No, I don't currently live in the place I'm talking about all of the time, but sometimes I do, and its nice because it does not exist in the world of opposites.

If you are feeling down and you think you should be happy, ask yourself this question, "who would I be without the thought I need to be happy?"

Well, when I ask myself that, I come up with this list:

-peaceful

-content

-steady

-I would not know what happiness was, so there would be nothing to live up to (wow think of the freedom!)

Can I Be Happy Without Money?

I have to make this my new challenge for the month. Money. The green stuff, the brown stuff, the gold stuff, the stuff that people say makes the world go around, the stuff that seems to determine whether I eat tonight or not, whether I get to see the world or not, to go to college, to live in a nice neighborhood, etc, etc.....or at least this is the way it appears.

Although I have tried often to make my relationship with money better (law of attraction, books, audio, blah blah blah) I still cant seem to make peace with money.

So I want to dedicate this month to my relationship with money. I want to know, "Can I have a successful life without money, without knowing it is going to come, without knowing whether I will have the money I desire to buy the things I need." Who would I be without my current thoughts about money? I want to find out, then share it with you.

I think I hate money, loath it, am annoyed with it, frustrated with it. But at the same time I want it, I feel I need it, I want more of it. It's an odd relationship, is it not? I hope at some point I will be able to say I love money, absolutely love it-and not because of what it gives me, but just because I love money since I love me. I think I'd like that.